Saturday, November 29, 2008
I need a holiday alone / 12:30 PM
Ever had this feeling when you know someones loves you so much and you share everything together and then the next minute your relationship is down the drain?
I guess its all too common these days to love one moment and to be ignorant the next. The feeling's just sick and annoying. Expecting too much is the problem and when you get disappointed no one really cares. I pondered this the whole of yesterday and thought what precisely could have been the problem or the cause, but silly me, obviously I wouldnt know.
I guess i'm a stranger from the start. Its nothing new nor surprising. I had that little hope that one soul made that statement the opposite but i guess in the end its all the same and i'm back at square one.
What hurts most is that i felt all glee knowing we were back on the happy track and i was expecting more from that, like i said when you expect too much you only get disappointed. & i really dont know what i should do rite now.
On a better note, yesterday was Zen's 21st party. I am thankful i pushed myself hard to go for it despite the absurd feelings i was having. I had goo food and the laughter and company was what i needed the most. I had to stop relying on my room for comfort.
I guess its all too common these days to love one moment and to be ignorant the next. The feeling's just sick and annoying. Expecting too much is the problem and when you get disappointed no one really cares. I pondered this the whole of yesterday and thought what precisely could have been the problem or the cause, but silly me, obviously I wouldnt know.
I guess i'm a stranger from the start. Its nothing new nor surprising. I had that little hope that one soul made that statement the opposite but i guess in the end its all the same and i'm back at square one.
What hurts most is that i felt all glee knowing we were back on the happy track and i was expecting more from that, like i said when you expect too much you only get disappointed. & i really dont know what i should do rite now.
On a better note, yesterday was Zen's 21st party. I am thankful i pushed myself hard to go for it despite the absurd feelings i was having. I had goo food and the laughter and company was what i needed the most. I had to stop relying on my room for comfort.
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